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• 1. Aliza  |  April 21st, 2007 at 10:11 pm

  I went searching for an answer today. I started to cry, it was awful - and I didn’t know what to do. I locked my door (I am in college) and just let it go, I cried until I fell asleep, I woke up- still very unhappy - and felt incredibly disoriented. Since that moment I have become very unmotivated and have an incredibly important paper to be writing, which makes this entire situation all the more difficult.

  When I was crying, I started thinking how much I wish I had someone there to try to sooth the situation, but I didn’t know who to call, I felt very very very alone, more alone than I have ever felt. I’m sure if I had called someone, practically anyone, they would have come if they were on campus, but I felt weird calling. So then I didn’t call and remained alone.

  Now I feel a bit awkward that I’ve just divulged all this information to you, a random stranger, and actually, technically to the whole world, but your blog helped me get myself in check - and I just felt the need to express my situation and thus the comfort your blog has give me.

  Thank you.

• 2. John  |  April 22nd, 2007 at 9:01 am

  Aliza,

  I’m so glad that my blog was able to give you some form of comfort. Loneliness is a major problem across college campuses today. Please do not feel that you are alone. I know that you have people there for you. Don’t be afraid to reach out. I’ve found that in my life the more I reach out for other people, the more they reach out for me when they need help. This is very comforting and helps to strengthen relationships.

  Spring time in college is the worse. I can easily relate to what you were feeling last night. Please feel free to write anytime you feel a need or urge, getting these things outside of our heads is very important and helps to keep the situation manageable.

• 3. colleen  |  May 7th, 2007 at 6:54 am

  i hurt a very dear friend yesterday. i cant stop crying i know i will see him today. how do i mend t he friendship.. it hurts so bad.

• 4. Sarah  |  November 1st, 2007 at 8:46 pm

  my boyfriend broke up with me about two weeks ago. he said it was because i cried too much, which i do. randomly. alot. it hurts me to know i hurt him… i still love him more than anything and wish he would just take me back. but he wont until i fix myself. if i cry to him once mre im afraid he will pull away. i need someone to tell me why this is happening.

• 5. John  |  November 2nd, 2007 at 8:49 am

  Sarah,
  First of all I don’t understand how you could hurt someone from crying. Secondly if you do find yourself randomly crying you probably need to seek some help. Not for your boyfriends sake, but for your own. No one deserves to feel like crap and cry all the time. I think your best option is to seek a therapist. They will be there to listen to you. They can help guide you through talking about how you feel, and if they feel it is necessary, they can also help you to get medications. There is nothing wrong with you. Depression is a disease much like any other. Good luck, and write back to tell me how things are going.

• 6. cessy  |  November 12th, 2007 at 12:21 am

  :(……

• 7. carl  |  June 5th, 2008 at 12:23 am

  As a man it is hard for me to cry but when I do I feel better. I for one just get lonely and its hard to deal with. Try not to be hard on your self. You may be surprised that the very person you call is lonely too and may really need you. Hang in there!

• 8. Justin  |  June 28th, 2008 at 5:35 am

  I’m a sappy person also, not sure if I’m depressed or what not but I may be I know for sure I’m lonely and defensive. Which are common traits of depression. I usually don’t feel better when I cry though. Usually I’m asking myself what is going on? Why am I? etc, etc. I just gorge myself in music, video games, and music. To distract myself, No real “help” where I’m at. This article was interesting though, helped me a little to understand myself, thanks.

• 9. Edwin  |  July 6th, 2008 at 9:24 pm

  Hi, like 7 to 8 years ago I was a very lonely kid, a teenager that really didn’t know what love ment. Then one day I found someone who made me feel alive, but a year later it ended, I cried for a few months, and then suddenly lost my ability to cry, and I had not cried for a really long time. Sometimes I had provoke myself to cry, but it was false, it didn’t last for a while, just a few seconds and I was dry again, so for a time I gave it up, because I was unable to release what I felt, and I had to lock everything inside. Now a few days ago, I started crying for no reason, and now and then I just see tears in my eyes, and my heart feels weaker, I just don’t feel like myself anymore. I have experience depression my whole life, but it seems to be in a whole new level, not that I feel like I wish to die or anything, I just don’t seem to find any happiness to hold on to, I have a happy thought, and suddenly it vanishes away into tears. Then I think of some problems I have in my life, like those who call themselves friends, and are actually people who come to me when they need something, and that just bothers me so much, and lately I just feel like I don’t want to have friends anymore, and I have a desperate need to be alone. I have nightmares of me running away from all the people I know, away from the place I live, so9metimes, aside of looking for a doctor, I just wish I could go away far, from my past, and from my present. I just don’t know who I am anymore…

• 10. Bonnie  |  July 28th, 2008 at 7:28 pm

  I have been on antidepression medicine for about 14 yrs now.I divorced my husband of 23yrs,for no reason.I was married again {after 10 yrs single} I have been married for
  6yrs.My husband drives over the road,so I am left alone all
  week.Then when he comes home,all he does is sleep.HE
  is an intervert{wants to be alone}I live back in the country.I go to church,But I miss my grandchrildren so much,they live 2hrs away.My husband doesn’t want me to use alot of gas so he wants me to stay at home all the time.I am still very depressed.I am trying to get help from my doctor,
  Please pray for me .THANK YOU

• 11. Dawn  |  July 31st, 2008 at 9:37 am

  I too suffer from depression, and latley, I am just having the most difficult time dealing with things. I can relate to the feelings of being alone that some of you have written about (as my husband used to travel the majority of the time because of his career). Recently, he has lost his job, and with the economy being what it is, he is having a rough time finding something else. Because of the loss of income, I have taken my self off of my perscribed depression meds because the money earmarked for those can go towards groceries. I am feeling myself spiral downward and am crying constantly. When my depression sneaks in (I view my disorder as an enemy that I am in constant battle with), it makes me feel like I am unworthy of everything. Like I am not worthy enough to eat (that food is more important to and should be going to my son instead of myself), I hide away in my bedroom like it is a santucatury because I don’t deserve to be around anyone in my family because I am such a burdon to them all. I honestly feel like God has been putting my family though all of this turmoil because I am a horrible person, so I view all outside circumstances as being a direct result of myself. To top it all off, my oldest son just got married this past spring, and he and his wife are expecting a new baby in Sept. Another other normal person would be thrilled with this; not me. I feel like I will be a failure of a grandmother to my first grandchild and I convinced myself that I will be a curse to him instead of a delight. I hate being such a downer all of the time, but the feelings just don’t change and the tears just don’t stop falling. I would ask for prayer, but at this point, I don’t know if that would fix me or not, probably not because God will know who the prayers are for and slam me once again. Thanks to this blog where I can vent and write how I am feeling, no one else in my family truly understands me.

• 12. John  |  July 31st, 2008 at 10:03 am

  Thank you everyone for your touching comments and emails.

  I can truly relate to each and every comment left on this blog. I think that talking to each other is the only real way to get through these ordeals that we go through.

  Please keep your comments and emails coming. I’m listening.

• 13. sophi  |  September 4th, 2008 at 2:00 pm

  thank you for this blog. its really helped me.
  i dont know whats going on with me.
  but the crying just keeps on happening, i feel so pathetic and alone.
  and i never know who to contact.
  or what to do. i just sit there and sob, sometimes for an hour or two, sometimes for a few minutes.
  it usually happens to me when im at home in the evening.

• 14. DOUG  |  September 5th, 2008 at 1:20 am

  I’M A 60 YR OLD MAN AND HAVE CLINICAL DEPRESSION. I CRY EVERY DAY, SEMI CONTROLLED W/ ZOLOFT. FOR 12 YEARS NOW. MY CANCER, HEART DISEASE, DIABETES, LEUKEMIA ETC. PALES WHEN COMPARED TO DEPRESSION. I WOULD’NT WISH DEPRESSION ON BIN LADEN. ITS THE LONELINESS THAT IS SO HARD TO COPE WITH. WISH I HAD A HAPPY ENDING TO THIS RANT BUT I DON’T. DON’T EVER GIVE UP!

• 15. susie  |  September 6th, 2008 at 10:18 pm

  I had sinus surgery on Feb. 21, 2008 and was treated horribly by the nurse in the recovery room and then humiliated by her when she took me to my room. When I got home the next day the pain was so out of control and I called my doctor and talked to the nurse. She said she would talk to the doctor and call me back. It was a Friday afternoon and she never called me back. During the next three days I had one bad experience with the answering service, the hospital emergency room and the doctor’s nurse waking me on Monday morning with a phone call.

  Ever since that day I have cried and at times have needed to call so someone would be with me. I am so depressed I don’t know how much longer I can go on. I have a doc for the antidepressants and also a therapist, but the depression has not improved. My marriage is a mess because of this and I cannot work so I have no income. What do you do? Is dying the only way out of this? I wait until my husband goes to bed a night to cry. I have realized how very alone we all are and the most important thing is to take care of yourself. I have stopped cooking, don’t have any energy to clean the house and pray for relief that someday it will be over. My therapist, since fired, told me I was just sad and to spend time with my friends. My friends don’t want to see me and others have abandon me because they can’t deal with all of this. How do you find room in yourself to deal with all of the feelings of sadness, dismissal and abandonment?
  My life depression is due to an early childhood trauma which has left me with a massive fear of abandonment. My family was not there for me. I have spent years in therapy and a year ago I was finally getting better and then I developed this sinus problem. After months of antibiotics surgery was the only option. What next?

• 16. sunshineak  |  September 9th, 2008 at 8:56 pm

  i’m 22, finishing up grad school and a full time project manager…

  i think i’m burned out…i randomly cry.. i dont know what to do…

  i just switched jobs so i don’t have insurence at the moment… i’m without insurence for the next 3 months…

  i plan on going to the doctor once my insurence kicks in…

  working a full time job and attending classes 4 nights a week is getting to me…

  it shouldnt be this hard… i think i just need to suck it up and stop whining

• 17. Ny  |  September 14th, 2008 at 7:52 pm

  i almost start crying for no reason but i manage to hold it in most of the time, but during it all i think about is my mates from a few years ago and i too also fell verry alone and dont know who to talk to anyone about it.
  At the moment i have a few friends but i have no close friends anymore i just slowly drifted away from them so i ws wondering if that had anything to do with it.

• 18. cuppy  |  September 18th, 2008 at 7:20 pm

  Been sat crying for the last few hours, I suffer with depression and tonights a bad night. I guess like a lot of us we tend to search for help when we feel this way and somehow I have found myself here. I take some comfort in knowing I am not totally alone in the way I feel, other people suffer and understand.

  People who have never suffered with Depression really have no idea how debilitating it can be, its not just the low moods and lack of energy, its like having all the colour drained out of life, all you are left with is a cold black and white view of things. It takes away your spirit, your enthusiasm but most importantly at times your hope. I wish i could remember a day when it wasn’t there, a say when i felt at peace in myself. I hope that time will come still, but days like this grind you down.

  Sorry to have wittered on, I guess I just needed to express myself somewhere, and here seemed a good place.

  Take care all, and I hope we all find a happy place to be sometimes

  Cuppy xx

• 19. no one  |  October 7th, 2008 at 10:25 pm

  I have made some major changes in my own life lately - and ever since then, I’ve just cried every day at one point or another. I’m not sure if it’s the result of these major changes, just adjustment issues, or if it’s a sign these changes are all wrong for me.

  I don’t know, but I feel like I’m losing my mind.

  I just started grad school and sometimes I feel myself start to tear up while in class even and it’s becoming a real problem.

  I guess I need to start counseling or something.

• 20. m e  |  October 11th, 2008 at 5:02 pm

  I have suffered from depression for half of my life (I am turning 25 in a few weeks). I have not sought help with the exception of one awful time when I saw a psychiatrist who is doing her fair share to give psychiatry a bad reputation. My depression has been exacerbated in the last year or so by painful life experiences.

  Today has been an especially hard day. I too feel very alone. In recent months, people, like my parents, sister and friends, I have reached out to when I’ve been feeling worse than usual have rejected or downplayed my feelings.

  I have always fond solace in the saying “this too shall pass.” As I sit here sobbing, trying to get through the pile of studying I have to do, I am trying to remind myself that this feeling, this loneliness, this sadness, and this life will one day end. And then I can stop feeling and just fall into a deep sleep without having to ever wake up again.

• 21. kc  |  November 4th, 2008 at 3:52 am

  I have clinical depression and right now (the past few weeks) is the worst it has EVER been. I cry nearly everyday, often not sparked by anything, and I can’t stop myself for hours. I feel so alone and don’t have anyone to call because I’ve pushed everyone away. People don’t stick around for long when you always say no to social events (due to extreme fatigue and lack of interest). I guess that’s why I am on this discussion board….

  I’ve just finished grad school and I’m thinking I’ve made a huge career mistake. I feel like I’ve walked down the wrong path and now I’m at a cliff face. I hope this feeling passes.

• 22. Sori  |  November 21st, 2008 at 1:50 pm

  I feel 4 all of you…..I was diagnosed with depression two years ago, but i stopped the medicine halfway through coz i coudlnt take “not having feelings”…..nor happy, nor sad….

  now two years later and out of the blue I have bad anxiety and i cry all the time. I cry about anything, even if im talking to my mother on the phone about trees i feel like crying…everything brings on a cry….

  i am too losing friends because i dont like to go out anymore, coz i find myself wanting to come home early because i feel like crying even when im out “having fun”…..

  i guess its back to the meds, sometimes you just cant make it on ur own……

• 23. Sarah  |  December 3rd, 2008 at 4:46 am

  I have been crying randomly for a long time now. I havent been out in about 7 months cause i ran away last year. I don’t have any friends. I have a boyfriend that i have been with for 2 years but i’m not allowed to see him. I’m going to be 17 in 3 months but i still feel like my mom wouldn’t allow me to see him. The first few months was good I used to study for hours and get straight A’s. I felt so good about myself and i was motivated to excersise and eat right. I looked and felt healthy. Now I have been unmotivated and lazy. I think i’m crazy now

• 24. Serena  |  December 9th, 2008 at 6:52 pm

  Hi,
  My sister called me today and is really feeling bad. She has been crying non-stop for no reason for the past three days. This is not like her. She has called into work and has been sleeping alot! I told her she needs to go in to see a doctor. She is not willing. I am reading and researching on the internet. She does not understand what is going on and nether do I. I have been through mild drepression and only can give her advice what I have gone throught. But, I did not go throught non-stop crying and I knew something was wrong with me so I saw a doctor. Advice is would be helpful. I am consoling her, but I dont know where her depression is coming from, if she dont know herself. HELP!

• 25. John  |  December 11th, 2008 at 11:31 am

  Serena,

  Depression can come from different sources. It can be from life situations, or from a chemical imbalance. Your sister may not find an immediate solution. Keep consoling her and continue to persuade her to seek profession help. Having professional help doesn’t mean that she is weak, most people don’t understand that.

• 26. Austin  |  January 23rd, 2009 at 7:05 am

  So… I have no idea if posts are still being responded to, I can only hope they are. I’ve recently been through, well… an extremely dramatic breakup. I find that I will sometimes (without any immediate reason) get this… well I think the best way to describe it is a great surge of feeling (negative/sad feelings). The feeling usually only lasts between 1 to 5 seconds. I am usually able to suppress it, although if I let it go I do begin to get teary, and if I don’t fight it at all I will usually begin to cry. I suppose it gives the feeling of having been squarely punched in the nose (the feeling of wanting to cry) and minor disorientation. The reason I am thinking it may have to do with depression is due to the accompanying feeling of extreme pressure in the area around my chest (heart, I suppose).

  I have actually been experiencing these feelings for quite some time before the breakup with my ex, however I honestly never thought much of it before. It is most-definitely not a pleasant feeling, and it is very confusing. Admittedly, my life was not exactly what I would call “happy” even before my breakup, so I am wondering if this could be some kind of depression-oriented issue?

  Also, I have recently seemed to develop a sort of anxiety issue that is somewhat akin to the “random crying” thing I mentioned above. Both will only “strike” when I see / hear, or for some reason gain a great deal of emotional buildup. (Such as seeing a display of affection from others, or even when reading a philosophical quotation that somehow means something to me.) I gain a kind of extreme uneasiness in the given situation.

  Hopefully my descriptions make some sort of sense… because it is all very confusing to me as well. Thank you in advance…

• 27. Dave  |  January 28th, 2009 at 7:15 pm

  hey, i can relate to this. im a 22 year old male. i went through a bad break up. its amazing what it can do to a person. i was fine, and now after the break up i suffer really bad panic attacks, to the point of i cant go anywhere or do anything! if the door bell goes or someone rings i go into one. also very depressed, had surges of wanting to cry for no reason. but whoever is reading this thinking of using weed or alcohol to help them. dont do it! possiblely the worse thing you can do. as the weed and stress of breaking up has turned me into this wreck! just keep ya chin up and get to the doctors asap! even thou it may feel like a mountain climb, you must push your self. peace and love, dave

• 28. Katie  |  February 4th, 2009 at 5:57 pm

  I just experienced this today. I was at work, and was just fine, and the next second i was talking to my supervisor and she said, “What’s wrong?”. And it was as if those 2 words opened a floodgate. I started bawling, but caught myself a minute later. She kept asking me what was wrong, and I was laughing because I had no idea why I was crying. Like your blog says, it feels like you lost control of your body for a minute. And “I mean wtf did I start crying for, and if I can not find a reason then why can I not stop crying?” is exactly what I was thinking at the time.

  I’ve had past problems with Depression and ADHD, so I immediately set up an appointment with a doctor. I just wanted to let you know how comforting your blog was to me- to assure me that I’m not crazy and that there was a reason for the random outburst. So thank you.

• 29. susan  |  February 7th, 2009 at 3:57 am

  I wish I could give you all a big, long, and loving hug.
  That pain in your chest is your heart centre, the seat of all love, compassion and emotion, and many people feel pain or burning sensations that go deep within them. I guess the ache is the “heart ache” that poets and sages speak of. For me, the feeling is there when I see something beautiful, and also when I am at my very lowest. It hurts!!

  I have always cried. I have also always been told I am “too sensitive” and have “poor coping skills”. If I believed all of those people who don’t understand I don’t think I would be here today. But I don’t believe them, and neither should you. Just like me, you are strong and capable, and battling daily with the challenge that has been set for us. Find your faith in something, and use it like a lifebouy. All the darkness in the world is not enough to dispell the light from one small candle. You are never alone. The challenge is to remember this and take solace. It is what keeps me going in the darkest of moments when I don’t know who I am or what I should do.
  Sometimes it feels like I am drowning, lost to everyone and everything. And then sometimes I feel like the tide goes out, and I am wading. Wet - in an endless sea - but not completely under. And so the cycle goes on. Hang on guys. Hang on to that lifebouy and wait until the tide goes out again. If I can do it, so can you.
  Please get help from a professional. I know its hard, for lots of reasons, but it may save your life. And that is certainly something worth saving - no matter who you are and what you feel about yourself. After all, we are all one, all part of the human race. Let’s look after each other. YOU ARE NEVER ALONE.

• 30. Austin  |  February 7th, 2009 at 8:02 pm

  That was really beautiful Susan… thank you so much. I often feel like I already have most of the answers to the questions I seek… but sometimes you really want to hear them answered by another person, you know? To know that there are others out there who understand… and what you wrote really spoke to my heart in a way I can’t describe… I wish I could give you and everyone else a very big hug as well. Thank you again for saying what I needed to hear. Best wishes to you and everyone.

• 31. Josephine  |  February 28th, 2009 at 11:46 am

  I randomly start crying for no reason what so ever. Or for very little reasons like someone called me a very small name like Lazy. I have something called Graves disease, and the doctors said it’s linked to that (I’m 17 btw if that helps…probarly not) I felt terrible when i suddenly cried when i was out with my boyfriend for no reason and he thought he had done something. It’s starting to become stupid now however as i will start randomly crying in college, and then the tutor will wonder why i’m crying, and i wouldn’t know myself. I never used to cry at all, even when being bullied to the point where limbs were broken.

  I’m not sure if that also means i got depression as well though. But it makes me very confussed, i can’t turn to anyone at all, not even to my boyfriend because i don’t no how to explain to him that he hasn’t done anything, when he thinks he did.

• 32. Teresa  |  March 14th, 2009 at 8:59 am

  Hi to all of you out there that are doing what i do, crying for no reason. I have been crying for no reason for years and was scared of getting a label. I want to do nursing and have just been excepted for Uni, (if i get depression diagnosed now i dont think they will let me do it) and i cant wait to start and sometimes i just want to talk to someone, someone that understands why i keep crying or want to cry. Im not suicidal by no means i just cant stop crying. And no one knows, i put up this false happy feeling to everyone,people always say to me that im always smilimg doesnt anything ever get you down and no one knows how i feel.(if only they knew, but im scared they would talk to me again) If I let an odd tear slip ive always say that i have watching a sad film. I dont want to keep crying but i also dont want this to stop me doing the things i want either. My dream is to emigrate to Oz and im scared i wont get in if they think im depressed.
  I feel like im the luckiest person alive because i have the most amazing husband who loves me unconditionally (and knows and excepts my emotional days) I also have 3 amazing kids whom i also love unconditionally, i live for all my family. I dont do much for myself, i live for everyone else and this makes me happy, (although there is a very odd time i wish there was time for me in there somewhere, but do feel guilty if i think of me). Im crying even writing this. I can help but think of you all and wish you all the lovein the world, that i have and pray that your crying stops. God less you all xx

• 33. Zeke  |  March 20th, 2009 at 11:19 am

  I weaned off of Celexa in Sept. and Oct. 2008. I wanted to see if I really neede an antidepressant. Coming off the Celexa was very difficult and due to insomnia during the process I contracted the flu. I felt well until Jan. 2009 and then I started to slide into the old pit. Finally, one day anything that happened was huge: washing clothes, making the bed, going to work, anything and everything. Since then I have continued to sink and am now again seeking professional help with the depression. I cry all the time. I have an appointment next week to restart medication. I have tried so hard to handle this disease on my own but the quality of my life has almost hit bottom. All I want to do is stay home with the door shut or sit in the back yard with my two puppies. I do work three days each week and it takes everything I have within me to roll out of that bed and put my clothes on. But I am still able to do it, but just barely. And my work performance is just fine.
  Glass People. Fragile? That’s how I feel. And real soon I will again get some preofessional help. Depression does hurt everyone in that person’s circle.

• 34. Jeremy  |  March 21st, 2009 at 11:16 pm

  Oh Zeke, I hope things get better soon ok? I care.

  Get well soon.

• 35. Claire  |  March 26th, 2009 at 1:59 pm

  I’m crying. I’m failing my classes… but that’s not why I’m crying. I burst out crying yesterday in my room for absolutely no reason- missed all of my classes, and am at a loss for why this is happening to me. I transferred colleges last semester and knew it was going to be a dramatic change.. but I thought I would be used to it by now. I was fine last semester- I went to all of my classes (for the most part). I don’t know what’s wrong. I take migraine medicine and my parents think it may be the problem as well. I don’t know. I feel overwhelmed, helpless. I know I have so much work to do, but I can’t do it. And what do I tell my professors? “Oh, I was crying so I couldn’t complete the assignment on time.” Yes, that will fly well I’m sure.

• 36. Cathie  |  July 10th, 2009 at 4:25 pm

  Since I feel like I am the only person in the world dealing with the tears and lonliness it has, in one way, been helpful to read this blog. In another way, it just makes me sadder that so many people hurt and yet we are all so isolated. I am a 58 year old woman who can’t stop obsessing about failures.
  I started using an SSRI just before my marriage fell apart in “95. I continued on it until 1-08. I stopped because when I took evey check list for depression, I stil qualifed for major depression. As I write this, it does not make sense,but there you go. I was ok, no better or worse until the following Nov. when the worst depression I could imagine started. I feel that I woke up with it. No appetie for 3 months, and forget sleep. I am now on Wellbrutrin. Have appetite. Only sleep by using other meds. Cry in public and in privite. The biggest friendships…there are others but this is what leaves me feeling the most lonely now. Even though I have had somefriendships that have lasted for a periord of years, I seem to eventualy drive people away. I am divorced but as much as I wish it didn’t have to happen, I understand it. I have pretty good relaionships with my two sons, which is extremelty important to me. I had lousy relationships with my parents. I am rambling and will stop. I do go to a support group EA, Emotions Anonymus. It is a 12 step program. The people are nice, but for the past 7 months I have cried through evey meeting and I am afraid they will kick me out. The goal is to share what helps. Imagine that, kicked out of a depression support group. I hate that anyone else has to feel this way so its hard to say it helps to know i am not the only one. Often I wish I could give up my life for someone who is dying but really has a lot to live for. I have even thought, in my more objective scartici moments that this would make an intersest plot for a movie. I am done. I can’t imagine anyone will read this whole thing!

• 37. Tay  |  July 25th, 2009 at 10:16 am

  Would you believe reading this has made me cry? I have always been the kind of person that cries at touching commericals or movies but not about real life. Its kind of weird, when someone I love passes, I have one long scary cry and then Im through. Lately, I have been more and more depressed. I know I need to get therapy because I really need to talk to someone. I can’t talk to family or friends because no one just listens. If I tell them how I feel, they either start saying that I will just get over it and how strong I am or they get really worried and start treating me differently. My brother walked in my room the other day and I was crying uncontrollably. I couldnt explain why. I have so many things on my mind (some are family issues and some are personal). Its hard to explain but its like I am used to being strong about things and now just cant take it. Whenever I get this way, I really think about killing myself. Its takes every fiber in my body not to just take a knife and stab myself in the chest. Sometimes the only thing that stops me is that I wont really die and will have to just exist physically disabled or have to explain why I did it. I really cant explain it though. Im just tired of living sometime. Nothing majorily bad has happened lately in my life though. I think its just now becoming overwhelming. I feel better if I talk to someone, but I only feel free to talk to a stranger.

• 38. The Turtle  |  August 3rd, 2009 at 10:50 am

  My story is similar to everyone elses. I have tried my best throughout my life to be the best person I can. I can’t figure out why I get so emotional at times. If someone that I care about says something less than nice about me I take it so personally. I laugh it off but it eats at me internally.

  My therapist continues to remind me that I should focus on my multiple excellent qualities. I try.

  I just started taking Paxil. I hope it works.

• 39. Danielle hart  |  August 7th, 2009 at 1:51 am

  i’ve had depression since i was about 12 and am now 22.i know what it’s like to cry at random for no apparent reason.for me it usually stems from thinking too much and worrying about every thing at once.i try to find ways to cope with my condition the best way i know how.i think writing to this blog might just help me..thanks

• 40. Alberta  |  August 10th, 2009 at 8:19 pm

  I think I was happy as a child. But I also know I have repressed so many memories. I just can’t deal with the barrage of emotions that threaten to overwhelm me all the time. I was unhappy for about a year- that was three years ago. Only recently have I started to cry uncontrollably. One day in school, I felt so sad, I just looked at the walls and furniture, and couldn’t look anyone in the eye or smile. But I didn’t cry until the next period, when my teacher gave me back an essay I had written and gotten a failing grade on. At that moment, I just felt like the biggest failure…and I started to cry, couldn’t stop. I went to the bathroom and wept, when I came back I felt a little better, but later that same day, right before dismissal, I started to cry after my friend got a better score on an oral quiz. It was hard to explain that it wasn’t really because of the quiz grade that I was crying- that I was just sad because my father has for a long criticized me and remarked that I needed to do better, try harder, be more like someone else. He began to say these things after losing his job. I guess we all need something in our lives, we all feel unhappy, but some us show it in a certain way, like crying.

• 41. K  |  August 24th, 2009 at 3:47 pm

  Today I cried on my way to the post office… It started from no where. I’m a 30 year old woman, well educated, happily married, not really any job - but should be working if I could motivate myself to stay working and focus. All my bills seem piled up. I get to a point where I wonder if I am all alone………….. Why do I feel hopelessness? I feel very much a loser. Not many close friends, which is odd, cuz I can make friends easily. However, I seem not to hold on to people for long. I don’t have children yet, but would like them. But some days I wonder to myself…. why bother leaving the house, people are so stupid, traffic is hell, customer service sucks and I can’t trust anyone.
  Emotions rise to the top - I cry about how much of a loser I am, wasting my time here on earth when I should be helping someone else, or working towards a goal. And yet I feel comfort in laying on my couch with a blanket and my cat. Is there anything more serene?
  Gosh, I love to sleep… My Dreams seem so much better!

• 42. Blousy  |  September 10th, 2009 at 4:04 pm

  Crying is definitely a sign of depression. In one of my longest and deepest episodes I cried for weeks before taking the antidepressants and then it two another four or so weeks for them to kick in. So I sat on my couch and cried. It was terrible and not normal. I like to be out doing things, working and being with people. The problem with it is ruminating. Any thought, and they are all negative about myself and other people, I dwell on and think about over and over again. Which drives me quite mad and then I get depressed. So over the last few years I have become quite involved in Mindfulness Training which really has helped me to notice what I am thinking and change it. It is also quite relaxing as one has to meditate to train the mind….:) I feel so much better when I am doing this, can operate in the world and do the things I want to do as well as feel in control of myself rather than my mind controlling me… The teariness is still there a little particularly when I talk about my condition to people for some reason but I figure the more I do it maybe the less it will happen …..

• 43. Myranda  |  September 27th, 2009 at 10:33 pm

  today was the best day ever my boyfriend gave me a promise ring and we cuddled i was so happy then for no reason at all i started crying and pulled out my knife and started stabbing my door, wall, and floor what the heck is wrong with me?? i just want to die:(

• 44. John  |  September 27th, 2009 at 10:36 pm

  Myranda,

  That’s some really serious stuff you are facing.
  Please seek help immediately before you hurt yourself or someone else.

  Depression is a disease. You must seek treatment.

• 45. diane  |  October 5th, 2009 at 5:00 pm

  i have suffered with depression on and off for years. I was on mediccation for a while but when my hour were cut at work I had to stop getting the neds. One thing I have noticed is my mood swings are more and more pronounced. Not to mention the fact that I can find no peace. I am and have always felt like I was alone, sometimes more than others. Being single at 38 with never being in a relationship or finding someone who wants to spend time with me without some alterior motive. never having a family of my own. wanting what I cannot have. I dont kow about anyone else, but I feel paranoid that I am gonna mess things up at work. feelings that I am not needed or wanted. everyday I cry, only to be told to stop acting like a cry baby. Family that I have helped at the expense of me having to do without, only t be told that I am useless when thibgs dont go their way. i hate where I am, cant get out cant focus on anything much.

• 46. Dewdrop  |  November 18th, 2009 at 9:51 pm

  I am being treated for clinical depression which was triggered by many factors, away from home, being dumped by my boyfriend, rude behaviour from my boss who was as sweet as sugar initially.

  I feel so awful, no matter what I do or how much ever I divert my mind I keep thinking about the past and I did have a very important presentation and I totally blanked out. I am actually feeling pathetic to be true and I have no clue how long I will have to go like this.

  And the other annoying thing is crying which I have been doing for a long time now and I cant concentrate on anything, new activities are not helping me either because I just curl up like a ball and cry later.I feel hopeless all the time and feel I can’t do anything right or worthwhile in life.

  If anyone is feeling something close to my symptoms I would like to talk to them and make a support group to help each other out through this phase.
  If anyone is up for this kindly let me know.

• 47. Dianne  |  December 19th, 2009 at 9:43 pm

  I hate the crying for no reason and the I hate that it just comes and goes. One minute I can be in good mood and then suddenly I can get angry, mad, or depressed. Or it wilol be the other way round. I will be bummed out then in a matter of minutes, I can be in great mood. I hate that. I cant seem to focus at work for some reason.

  I enjoy the Holiday’s, but it is hard when it reminds me of past Christmases with my family. I start thinking about how much time has goneby and how much I have not done with my life.

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