I know what you must be thinking.

This a$$hole hasn’t updated his blog in nearly two weeks. What the F*** is wrong with him.

My appologies.

Life has been moving at a very quick pace lately. It seems like I am busier than I have been before in the past. This is probably mostly due to the fact that I have a job this semester working about 20hrs per week. I haven’t really done this since 1999 when I first started school [which I quickly dropped out of for many reasons].

Nevertheless I am sorry that I don’t have much to say about life.

My depression has become managable. I really feel like after this last year/year and a half that I have come to understand mself so much better. So I know my own pitfalls [at least most of them] and I can either completely avoid them, or just understand when they are happening and talk myself through them. The most important thing that I’ve come to terms with is living WITH my depression. It will not go away for me, ever. Though for some depression is only a temporary thing, for others [myself included here] depression is a life time struggle much like diabiets, and also like diabiets we have to learn exactly how to live with this disease.

Hopefully I will be writting a better [more well thought out] update soon. I wish to talk more about my depression since lots of people come here for just that.

Don’t touch that dial, We’ll be right back!

Add comment September 27th, 2006 at 08:58am John

Today was a hard day.

My weekend was tuff, very very tuff starting on Thursday night. This however did not effect today.

Today was all about 9/11/01. Five years ago, a terrible tragedy forever shaped America and myself.

We all know what happened, we all cried that day. We cried for days and weeks afterwards. When I woke up this morning I didn’t realize that today would be so hard. I knew it would bring back lots of memories and images forever frozen in my brain. I knew that this day would bring back stories of lives directly touched by those airplanes, of brave men and women who searched and rescued. Today I cried, not once or even twice, but five times total. I cried remembering the towers being hit. I cried for the downed plane in Pennsylvania. I cried for America’s heroes. I cried and cried and cried and cried. It is pretty amazing that “Taps” can bring such tears to my eyes. Today was hard for everyone. My heart is with all peoples who were affected. My tears mixed with your tears today and I pray for you still.

Add comment September 11th, 2006 at 08:50pm John