Too Long
Wow, it has been nearly 3 months and I still have yet to find a job. Either I really suck, or Bloomington’s job market is very very terrible. I’m not quite sure how i’m surviving considering that I spent my last two dollars on bread sometime early last week. Life is utterly crazy, crazy I tell you, crazy.
In the mean time I try to live and not be bored. This is especially hard when you do not have a job, and do not have money. Alas, I am trying very hard. I am trying to do more athletic things, like basketball, frisbee, biking, running like a mad man down the street at 3:00am towards the hordes of drunk students, stuff like that.
I am also on week two of my program to step off of Lexapro. My doctor and I designed a program so that I would take 10mg of Lexapro one day, 5mg the next day. This would go on for one week. Then I would take just 5mg of Lexapro everyday for one week [that is this week!], and next week I will take just 5mg of Lexapro every other day. That means by July 6th I will completely be off of my medication, Hurray!!! This is just a trial to see how things go, but so far things are ok. The first day I took just 5mg of Lexapro I had lots of crazy unexplainable emotions. I wanted to cry for no reason in the middle of the Alley Cat [a broadripple bar]. Things have since gotten better and I really can’t tell much of difference in my emotions from one dosage to the next. This seems very good for me and might mean that my body can now produce enough Serotonin on its very own! Though nothing will be completely sure until about two weeks after the Lexapro is completely out of my body. So July will be interesting, and I should know for sure by Aug wether or not I will need to take medication for the rest of my natural life. Let us hope not.
