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Anniversary

Happy Anniversary Michelle!

Today it would have been 3 years and two months.

I hope that you are happy where you are.

1 comment May 31st, 2006 at 11:44pm John

It’s nearly 4am and I can’t fucking sleep. This is becoming a major problem. It is not that I am so depressed that I lie in bed all day and now I can’t sleep. When I do sleep I tend to sleep for 10 hours or so. I would say that this is normal and not excessive at all. I am usually not tired during the day and only rarely do I take naps. Lately I have not had naps but after lying in bed for over an hour I find my mind still rolling on and on and on. I get caught up in my own head so much that I can’t keep it out. Sometimes I can tell myself over and over to “shut up shut up shut up”, but this doesn’t work often because it is only noise pollution instead of the peace needed to get to sleep.

Anyone have any ideas for me. It is truely bothering me. I can’t stand to lay in bed for over an hour and not be able to get to sleep. This is a problem. I need to solve it.

3 comments May 29th, 2006 at 02:57am John

Lonely

I feel like singing that song…. “I’m lonely so lonely”

2 comments May 27th, 2006 at 01:50am John

Michelle and I

Last night I got to talk with Michelle!

It was very good for me. I had many questions for her about our past relationship. I don’t know what I was expecting to hear or what I expected to feel after talking with her, but this certainly is not what I had thought.

Nothing new really happened. She said the same things she has been saying to me:
That she doesn’t want to be with me now.
The she isn’t single
That she has no idea what the future holds.

I did not expect to feel good after hearing these things, but I do. Actually I feel recharged. I still hope and hope and hope to get back together with her, but I feel I am more rooted in reality now. I can see now that talking with her recharges me. I need it. Kinda strange but it helps to fuel my heart, to know that she still cares… I can still carry on.

I know that my feelings would not have changed, or that my outlook on life or Michelle would notÂ have changed no matter what she said. Basically life is the same except that I am recharged now. I was getting low on Michelle fuel, but I filled up to the brim last night. Great conversation, happy times, laughs, rolling on the floor, tears, … the works.

Also I got a call today from the owner of Mixed Greens which is a new restaurant being built down the road from my house. We have a meeting tomorrow to go over a website for his business and to give him a quote. More work for John!!!! Plus I finished the first complete draft of the website I’m working on now. Hopefully the owner of the site will get back in touch with me tonight or tomorrow so that I can make changes quickly and get that site done with cash in my pocket, cause my pocket is empty!

Add comment May 23rd, 2006 at 05:26pm John

Sweet Mother of Work

Dear People of Earth,

I give up. You win. Leave me alone.

John.

I applied for a job, swept the interviewers off thier feet (read: did well) and still somehow did not get the job out of four (read: Fucking Four) canidates. I must really really suck.

On the plus side I got some more work from a client of mine. This freelance stuff is really great. It is too damn bad that it is not more contstant because I also must pay rent.

I have added a new page to this site and reworked the navigation bar titles. Look UP and check it out!!!

Add comment May 13th, 2006 at 08:27pm John