The Sky is Falling
Is this true for the whole entire planet earth that we inhibit? Or is it just me?
It seems like whenever things are starting to look up they crash and fall further than where they were before. What the fuck is up with that?
Michelle and I used to talk on the phone about once a week, for a good bit of time. We both enjoyed talking to each other. No problems existed until she found out how much we really talk. Apparently one-two hours a week is just too much time to spend with John on the phone. Now she won’t return my calls, she won’t even pick up the damn phone. Maybe I’m over-reacting. I certainly feel worthless. I can’t seem to help it. I feel like I’m not good enough for her to even pick up the phone. Is this other guy so much better than me? Do his kiss send shivers down her spine like mine did? Is the way that he holds her hand so much better?
God these things stick in my head all fucking day. They pop up unexpected and stay there until I’m at home in my bed underneath the covers in the middle of the fucking day. Even then they don’t leave, but somehow I cry myself to sleep. I always wake up feeling even worse, and usually going right back to sleep again.
Life is so hard, so full of pain and sadness. I have cried in nearly every classroom I set foot into. I still hope for a future relationship with Michelle, but sometimes the sadness is overwhelming. I just don’t know what to do.
Add comment April 7th, 2006 at 10:17am John
